Choices...

Last week I got a question from one of my blog readers to write something which would motive to sit and write final dissertation. Honestly - I can not. Because today I made a choice which I am not proud of it at all, but maybe someone else will get motivated from my failures..

It´s hard to change the way of living if all your life you were having the same routine. We all know, what the humans mind can do - to make impossible to become possible. To make all changes in yourself if you want.. That is why there is a saying: ´if you want to change the world, change your mind´.  Right. Everything depends on you, what you want to do with your own life..   But sometimes we have a lack of motivation. 

Lack of motivation usually is caused by something more important. Priorities. Honestly, this semester, which is my final bachelor semester, I already started with the background of failing my studies. When I say ´Failure´, I don´t mean that I wouldn´t pass my final project, I am not scared to say - I am smart enough to do it, but I would not finish it with the grade which I want to score..  And this is the failure for me.  

Every beginning of the week, I promise for myself to put myself together and study the way I should. But my mind is blocked with the bigger priority. And this is the health. Maybe its strange to hear it from me, small active smiley person, talking about the Health, but lucky or unlucky I got to know that this untouchable power is important. If you don´t have the energy - you don´t want to do stuff. Your mind is messy and complicated.  We all know the Maslow´s Theory of Motivation, which says, that firstly basic needs should be covered in order to pursue self actualization.  Therefore I decided to split up my semester and to do just half of what is expected - I will write my dissertation now and leave final project for coming one. I am not proud. I am not satisfied. That´s even completely different from what I am (I love challenges!) But I feel that having less messy mind is more healthier for me at the moment. I could do more stuff which makes me happy and next semester feeling powerful again I will get the grade which I want. So there is no right or wrong.. There is the way you want to be. 

Note for the lazy bastards: 

FACEBOOK IS NOT SOMETHING WHICH MAKES YOU MORE HAPPIER AND FULFILLING YOUR LIFE. PUT PARENTAL  SETTINGS ON YOUR COMPUTER, SHUT INTERNET CONNECTION IF ITS NEEDED, BREATH IN, BREATH OUT - SIT DOWN AND WRITE YOUR PAPER!