to (not) exist

A day when you know you have met your soul. Silence beauty. Totally blocking the outer life with earplugs and the sound of the music. Melancholic. Music when you hear your inner voice. When you feel your heartbeats as something special happened or might happen. The day when all ´must´duties can wait and a time slooows down. 

Couldn't sleep this night, was waking up too many times. Always angry at myself, because even in my dreams I was failing. I understood..I cannot be someone else than myself. Not that I don´t like who I am, but everyone keep having some kind of expectations which at the end I don´t fulfill any of them.. 

Or maybe a little messy mind-bug return again..

A day when I need just a hug. And Your smile.